Probably not wise but I just couldn't this morning...

I just couldn't go to work today.

I couldn't face my team of idiots one more time.

Tomorrow is my last day before I move to a better team.

A more competent team.

A team that works as a team and actually does work; instead of buck passing or pretending they don't know what to do because they just can't be bothered helping out their team mate or me, their boss.

Today I just looked at my phone, dialled the number, and said, nope, not coming in. I’m sick.

I have never chucked a sickie.

I have never faked a sickness. A cold. A flu. Anything. Nothing to get out of work.

But today I just couldn’t.

I am so very tired.

I couldn’t look at them one more time and hear the constant whinging about how they have to do work.

These people are being paid $70,000 - $80,000 a year (I guess it includes super etc) but the point is, is that they don’t deserve. They haven’t earned it. There are another people out there, earning much, much less, and actually contributing to the world. These people avoid work, don’t help, and rock up to work about 9.30am and then whinge all day before slipping out at 4pm. They haven’t even done a full day’s work. This doesn’t include the hour lunch they take.

As their supervisor, I have brought up my issues about it all, only to be told that this is the public service. As long as they are doing the work, then it doesn’t matter what time they show up, or leave, as long as the work gets done. Now, I give them work. They claim its getting done but after they leave, the big wigs ask for it, and it’s not done. I bring up the next day (after I have had to complete it all), only to be faced with a blank expression and another whinge. This has been going on for four months.

Four long, long months.

I left my old team because I was harassed and overworked to point of exhaustion. I was told to put up and shut up, and just do the work… even though I was doing the work of three people, while others sat by. I left that team because they were arseholes (excuse the language but there is no other way to describe them).

And so I moved to this team, only to be faced with another set of issues. Lots and lots of issues!!!

I don’t pull my hair out. I don’t get angry. I don’t lash out. I don’t do these things because I know my real job is waiting for me. I just have to be patient and wait for my start date…

So for now, I smile, I nod, and I politely tell them that they are paid very well and have little responsibility, therefore they need to do the work. They bitch behind my back (I’ve caught them a few times) but they do the work.

Tomorrow is my last day with them and it’s going to be the longest day.

There is light at the end of the tunnel, I just need to be patient.

FYI - i am actually sick. I have worked through my cold for the past two weeks without time off. I think my body is tired for having to smile, nod and be polite to idiots.

I think my body, my mind, my soul is rejecting my efforts to be polite to idiots.

I should look into that.

From Anonymous

I've learnt that...

• You cannot make someone love you. All you can do is be someone who can be loved. The rest is up to them.

• no matter how much I care, some people just don't care back.

• it takes years to build up trust, and only seconds to destroy it.

• it's not what you have in your life, but who you have in your life that counts.

• you can do something in an instant that will give you a heartache for life.

• no matter how thin you slice it, there are always two sides.

• you should always leave loved ones with loving words. It may be the last time you see them.

• we are responsible for what we do, no matter how we feel.

• there are people who love you dearly, but just don't know how to show it.

• true friendship continues to grow, even over the longest distance. Same goes for true love.

• just because someone doesnt love you the way you want them to, doesn't mean they don't love you with all they have.

• maturity has more to do with what types of experiences you've had and what you've learned from them and less to do with how many birthdays you've celebrated.

• no matter how good a friend someone is, they're going to hurt you every once in a while and you must forgive them for that.

• no matter how bad your heart is broken the world doesn't stop for your grief.

• just because two people argue, it doesn't mean they don't love each other.And just because they don't argue, it doesn't mean they do.

• we don't have to change friends if we understand that friends change.

• you shouldn't be so eager to find out a secret. It could change your life forever.

• there are many ways of falling and staying in love.

• no matter how many friends you have, if you are their pillar, you will feel lonely and lost at the times you need them most.

• the people you care most about in life are taken from you to soon.

• although the word "love" can have many different meanings, it loses value when overly used.

• love is not for me to keep, but to pass on to the next person I see.

• there are people who love you dearly but just don't know how to show it.

• even when I have pains, I don't have to be one.

• every day you should reach out and touch someone. People love that human touch-holding hands, a warm hug, or just a friendly pat on the back.

• I still have a lot to learn......