Questions, overthinking, thinking. I hate it all!

For the past few weeks my brain has been in overdrive, riddled with questions.

Questions I can't actually answer because the answers are out of my hands.

All the answers are dependent on my environment and of course, other people. 

And because I am too chicken shit to ask, I just sit patiently and wait.

Like anyone on this planet, I don't like rejection... who does! I don't like the silence you don't hear after asking a question because more questions come... the head questions.

I'm tad neurotic because I tend to overthink things and play out scenarios that will never happen because I want to be prepared in case that scenario because a reality. See what I mean.

And that’s the dilemma because if I was more forthright I would grab the questions by the balls and demand an answer but I not a demanding kind of person. Well, not too demanding.  

So what is a girl to do?

Should she:

1.   Leave it, don’t ask and hopefully things turned out the way I hope it does by being patient?

2.   Say something, and risk the incoherent mess of my words that will usually follows?

3.   Write down what I want to say, hand to them, and then make a run for it and hopefully they will n  shoot the right message into the sky.

4.   Say nothing because maybe just maybe there is nothing to be said.

Bah!

Screw this. It’s all too hard. See chicken shit… that’s me!

I just want a sign or something but the thing is I am not one of those people who wait for a sign. I think I am too impatient to wait for the sign. It would be nice for my questions to be answered without me having to ask them. 

I am thinking its number 3. J