Ah they were right...

Everyone told me only I could change things and turn things around.

I was the only one who could sort my shit out; no one else could do it for me.

And in my stubborn ways, I just nodded and listened but didn't quite understand how. 

They were right though. 

I started making some changes and I have to say, I feel me. 

I was allowing myself to wallow in the crap that i created, and even worse, allowed some people around me to lead me astray because I was lazy and thought it was easier just to say nothing. Simple. 

Its a hard thing to swallow when you realise that. 

And while I don't shoulder all the craziness around me on my own, I have allowed it to engulf me and affect others. And that's shit. To be frank. And I am sorry for that. 

While I know this is just a bump in the road (a one off as they say) it still doesn't excuse the fact that I became so self indulgent and critical of myself. I know I am not that person. 

I am better than that. 

Who I have been for the past few months, isn't me. And she's gone as far as I am concerned because I've had enough of her. Begone, moody bitch! ;o)

I have now taken charge.