Coming second, sucks!

My time flies and then you realise crap...

Crap being the word of the day for me!

I have spent seven long years at my current employment and now I want out.

The only reason for my flat attitude is that I had hope to have happy news today... that a job I applied for – basically a employee I had been aiming to work for since I started working – sent me a lovely and curt email saying thanks for no thanks.

I came second.

There is nothing wrong with coming second; its just that I really, really wanted this job.

Second isn't always bad...

I love seconds of food; kisses; hugs.... but coming second to someone else sucks!

And now I have in the fight for my current job.

The job I have been for the past three years was advertised a few weeks ago and now I have been short-listed for an interview.

I am no arrogant flower but it sucks to have to be interviewed for a job I do every day, and have been, for three years.

Next Tuesday is D-Day... and I have to blow everyone, on the interview panel, away.

The nervy part is that I have worked with each other these people for many, many years and now I have to pretend I don't know them and that I am best thing since sliced bread.

I hate talking about myself in interviews and I hate that I know that I blank and forget everything. I know many people hate interviews but seriously, I am god awful at them.

So I have something to look forward to, I guess.