And I don't even have a baby so I have no excuses for being tired but I am not sleeping (or getting around four hours) because my brain will not just switch off.
It's bloody irritating.
I have questions that need answering but I don't know how to approach it.
I have thoughts that I want to express but not sure how to frame it.
And I hate change because I am not control.
So if you want to change your career, your life goals, or simply speak to someone, how do you do it when it means saying something and waiting for an answer that might not be what you want to hear?
I am giant scaredie pants (official term).
I wasn't always like this but in the last few months I have turned into jelly.
I used to grab what I wanted by the balls and get it. No question.
If I wanted a job, I got
If I wanted to travel, I made it happen.
If I wanted a boy, I told him how I felt... OK that's a giant fib. I wouldn't just tell him directly. It would take days, weeks, months of coaching my sorry arse before I said anything.
The thing I am trying to say is that I was ambitious, strong and confident.
Lately I have been feeling flat, in an emotional funk and self doubting.
I am trying to regain control and have to balls to ask the questions I need answering ... it comes back to my medical condition of being a giant scaredie pants. :o)
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