Nothing.
I am speechless.
I found out this
afternoon my job changed without anyone uttering a single word.
I was emailing
someone on leave and read her out of office message and saw that I had taken
over her role.
Apparently it was
announced when I had day off.
When I walked into the office today, no one
said a thing. No one told me anything about it.
When I asked, the
response was that they thought the boss should tell me.
That boss conveniently
took the day off from work today.
This is the third
time I have found out that my job has changed via someone else... be that an
out of office message, a piece of paper with name on it, or my desk moved. Now I want to be clear, it is
not a reflection of me because quite frankly i am FRIGGIN' AWESOME at my job
but, as my boss explained, you will go where I say you will go.
And in the past I
have made it work but today I reached my limit of always saying yes to every single bullshit task my boss asks.
The looks on my colleagues were of embarrassment. They knew they should have spoken up for me but said
nothing. They knew they should have called me straight away but they didn't.
They knew that what my boss was doing was outrageous but said nothing.
I have mentored
and supported these very people and now when I needed, they said
nothing.
What can you
do?!
So I am
speechless. In disbelief. So angry and frustrated that I am crying.
I do have a wonderful
support network of a boyfriend, friends and family who are doing a fab job cheering me up
and catching me so I don't fall.
BUT I need to
remember that I am not defeated and that no one has control over my career. No
one has the right to tell me what I can and can't do... because if you try,
just watch what happens.
Tomorrow Ill go into work, do this job that I was never hired for or qualified for, and when the day comes (and it actually be very soon) for me to hand in my resignation letter there will be no reservations, no apprehension, and no overthinking.
It will be a smile, a nod and goodbye.
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